I like looking back what happened a year ago. Or two. It is not because I live in the past or don’t care about the future it is more about appreciating my way and experiences. And to see where I am now. To see if my dreams, wishes and goals where realistic and if I am a step closer.
So here I am – again. Looking back. My very private way of celebrating my birthday.
Deciding to try this whole girlboss-working-for-my-own-thing was the best decision. I could say why haven’t I done it earlier. Well I wasn’t ready. I wasn’t confident enough but I am happy and proud how it starts to develop and that I am in business like I am after three months already. If you pondering if you want to start something: don’t loose hope. Give it a try. It is damn scary. And it is tough. And there will be a ton of things you don’t know how to do. But at least try. Sounds stupid and like an advise you can ready anywhere. Right. But oh so true…
Hubby. No its a lie. I actually love him.
.I don’t like:
People on eBay Kleinanzeigen (craigslist) who buy something and then never showing up, who are annoyingly asking three million questions to be than telling that they were never interested in the first place, people who are insulting, people who threaten to suit on no ground, people who are not able to form a single sentences and throw only words at me… What is wrong with them? What happened to good manners? Seriously its no fun.
This year is treating me so much better than the last one. Or the one before. I finally have the feeling of being somewhat in charge again. I feel like I am a bit more myself again. Like waking up from a slumber. Self induced one – maybe. I only know I feel so much better.
Lipstick. I started wearing real clothes and make up when working in my home office. Not just yoga pants and sweat shirts. Makes me feel legit. I would like to wear more home made clothes though.
Nothing really. I might appreciate some things but I really don’t ned anything. And I am grateful for that.
.I’m annoyed by:
By cigarette smoke. Seriously, I did we do it when it was allowed to smoke in public? And I did I do it when Mr. ♥ still smoked. It drives me crazy overtime there is a whiff of smokey air coming through the open window. That’ is the con of working in an apartment building. There are people on the other balconies – and they smoke. And I have to be quick to close my windows or else the entire apartment smells like a night club. Exaggerating much – no, not at all!
To finally finish my craft room and now home office. It has been a disaster chaos room. Full of junk, full of unfinished projects, full of promise but now follow through. I still have half a year to get my new years resolution done. Hope I manage but it sure overwhelmed me.
The rain. I am sitting on my balcony and listened to the rain fall down. It drowns all the noises and mutes them. I am conscious of how loud the city can be and I am often stressed by it. So I love listened to the rain today. That no one is outside and that there are not even cars traveling. And if I close my eyes I could actually imagine it might be a small creek going by.
A lot of pictures and photos. I might have mentioned, that I started a photography class in the local community college in November last year. It ended in May. So within the last months my output of photos as increased immensely. I also started a new instagram account if you like to follow.
I am hoping to continue and to actually incorporate it somehow into my career.
Less. This is somewhat surprising as I can eat and eat and eat. And I love eating. But lately I am not really that hungry and I found myself often going to bed without dinner jus because I was a) to lazy to do something and b) I just didn’t feel hungry.
Beer. I lately discovered I do like a good pils. My go to is always a Pilsner Urquell but recently I also started to like a Tannenzäpfle. But besides alcohol I have a new coffee drink I like a lot: one spoon of coconut mousse for the coffee. Strong flavor, no sugar.
Orange blossoms. I managed to pamper my little orange tree (or actually cumquat) and after many years it has finally managed to bloom again. I have had 5 blossoms already now being little green fruits and I have spotted 9 more blossoms yesterday. I am so terribly excited and I hope they will open tomorrow when I have my birthday party. It would be so nice to have the orange smell on the balcony.
I miss my grandpa. He passed away recently. Actually I miss a lot of people. All the once that are no longer among us. The once I feel like I didn’t spend enough time with when I had the chance because I was too busy with other (unimportant?!) stuff. I miss all the untold stories I am no longer able to hear the informations that are therefore lost forever.
That I am not really able to apologize.
Of many many things. Vacations with hubby to places like Iceland, Norway, Finnland, New Zealand, Australia. I dream of having my camera with me and snapping some really awesome pics. I dream of days at the spa. I dream of fun times with my god child. I dream of a a happy balanced life with no arguing and being bitchy. I dream of being a better person.
Now that I have typed away on my list I will check out what I wrote in 2016 in 2015 and see if a few things came up again.
If you decide to join the fun let me know in the comments I would love to read.
In the end of 2015 I realized that the happy moments in my life are there but I do tend to ignore or forget them. So since January 2016 I write a daily happiness journal. It made me realize that there are much more happy moments, that they are usually small, that I am still not mindful enough to catch them all…
Today I want to share some of those moments with you:
If you start thinking about those little things you can go on and on and on. Fun thing is that after I wrote my list I check out the mentioned research and I listed quite a few things that the study defined in finding happiness.
But now I am interested: what would you would put in the list? Let me know in the comments.
There are days when you just need waffles. At least I’ve got those days. It was raining, it was cold and I had a craving. In the days I somehow always go for sweet stuff: pancakes, semolina, french toast or waffles…
Those waffles were the most fluffiest waffles I have ever had. Seriously. They are fluffy yet crunchy, not too sweet and just yum. A real treat. Don’t believe me? Have a try and be convinced.
The Fluffiest Waffles – Crunchy Oatmeal Waffles
125 g whole grain flour
25 g grape seed flour
250 ml milk
3 tbsp coco flower sugar
3 tbsp vegetable oil
1 pinch salt
4 tbsp oatmeal, whole grain
Mix flour, milk and sugar and let sit for 20 minutes.
Separate eggs and whip up egg whites with salt.
Add oil, egg yolks, oatmeal to the flour mixture.
Fold in egg whites.
Enjoy with salty butter and powdered sugar while still warm.
Do you make waffles for breakfast? Or is it more a treat in the afternoon? Would you spill your favorite recipe? And do you know of a recipe where no egg whites need to beaten? Because lets be honest its a pain in the a**.
Today I have been married for three years. We are not doing anything fancy today but go for dinner Friday night. Last year we’ve celebrated our anniversary with a trip to Helsinki.
When we went to our honeymoon we had a lay-over in Helsinki and agreed to come back after seeing the city from the plane. So we did. It was fun.
Most people are probably scared to fly north during winter but than we love winter. Why don’t I tell you a bit more.
Ok, first I have to be honest. We had tough weather. It was around freezing and it was so humid. Something between fog, sleek and snow-slush-rain… Being outside was sometimes tough so we didn’t wander that far out of the downtown area and had quite a few coffee stops. BUT what we liked what we saw.
We walked and wandered around a lot. It’s our way of discovering a city and we easily get the lay of the land. More than once we ended up at the South Harbor and were mesmerized with the frozen Baltic Sea. I’ve just never seen anything like it. We came back almost every day…
Close by is the Old Market hall – Vanha kauppahalli. A cozy warm roofed market. We had the feeling that locals and tourist were at balance among the visitors. Lots of people had lunch. Unfortunately we weren’t hungry. Still it was interesting seeing local food and warm up.
Unfortunately the building is not open for public but we walked around there and the neighborhood and found it was quite different. The heavy fog might have had something to do with it…
Sunday afternoon we were frozen so we went to the design museum. We really liked it a lot. If you are interested in interior design this is for you. If you are into design history go there too. We learned a lot about how strategic the Finnish people planned their design supremacy. Also there are so many objects we knew by sight but had no idea they were made in Finland.
Just across the street from the museum is the Johanneksenkirkku – a church (ok, I do have a thing for sacred architecture…). I believe it is one of the nicest I have seen in all my travels. While there is pompous decor it is not dark, stuffy and gold but rather light and withdrawn. You can hardly find any pictures from the inside, I think it’s so worth seeing.
On our last day before heading to the airport we went to Suomolinna. An island with a huge sea fortress or better an island fortress. Going by boat through the ice floes was maybe my best experience. It is much louder than I expected and you feel every impact. We journeyed through the skerry landscape and I discovered quite a few cute remote houses. I could easily spent a few weeks there…
The island was somewhat deserted as we went there off season. However it was still nice to walk around and get a feel of what it must have been living there in rough weather. Being at Suomolinna was the only time I really felt cold during our trip to Finland. The wind is crazy, it was snowing a bit and we were outside walking for a long time. We didn’t go to the museum as we didn’t have much time and rather walked to the far end of the island to have a look at the open waters. The history of the sea fortress is quite interesting and it is under UNESCO World Heritage. You could easily spent a whole day there specially in summer with picnics and nice views.
During our honeymoon we had a tough time with the food. It was just so very different and than we were even further north and not in a city. Being in Helsinki the food scene was much better. While I started to like it and ate my way through fish and crabs and karjalanpirakka Mr. ♥ had a tougher time. Assuming it’s due to the conditions and location of Finland – they just don’t have veggies and if there are they are really horrible… Just be aware. It all looks old and frozen and tasteless – even in the supermarkets. Maybe that is just a momentarily picture in February but that is what we got after two trips to Finland. On another note, Helsinki has a broad selection of craft beer. I had quite a few and I liked them all. So if you like that Helsinki might be for you.
We found a nice and affordable hotel within the city – Hotel Indigo Boulevard. The hotel is located in Helsinki’s Design District. Al lot of small little shops are in the surrounding neighborhood. We liked the hotel as it was clean, modern and had a separated bathroom – something hard to find nowadays.
We took a flight from Berlin with airberlin and were surprised it’s only about 2 hours. From the Helsinki airport we took a bus to the central station where we switched to the tram that took us directly to the hotel. We found public transport very easy and comfortable to use.
It was a nice trip to Helsinki we had last year. I would go there again. Maybe in summer. We heard and read the summers in Helsinki are legendary with lots of outside activities and festivals … and the sun never goes down…
Have you been to Helsinki? Would you take a trip to Helsinki? What would you check out?