50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind – part X

Welcome to the last post in this series and another check on my bucket list. It’s been a ride answering all these questions and at times I really wondered why I even started. They are personal. They are hard. And some of them I didn’t want to answer – specially publicly. But I usually pull through and so I will of course answer the last ones as well.

46. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?

I think I would be in a different profession. I was dead set on becoming an archeologist for years during high school. Looked up excavation summer jobs. Until someone told me I would need to study ancient languages and I am not a language person. I did learn hieroglyphs and repainted them. I drew Hebrew letters and learned them along side my aunt who studied theology. I learned Sütterlin script from my grandma. Was I really not good? interested?
Or I would have become a professional photographer or something more art based. But then again one person kept saying there is no money in art.

On the other hand I would have never met my husband and I am pretty sure I wouldn’t like that. Is my believe in soul mates big enough to bet we would have met otherwise? I am not sure. Let’s not test it.

47. When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?

I hear my breathing a lot of times. When I am in bed I feel it more than hear it – because I am wearing ear plugs every night – and the movement of bed drives me nuts. I sometimes wonder what that certain sound is that I am hearing just to realize my breathing makes a weird high pitched noise. I hear my breath when doing yoga. I hear my breath when walking outside. So … this is nothing foreign to me. The question is rather who doest hear herself breathing?

48. What do you love?  Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?

I love the idea of being athletic again and I am committed to make it happen. I love ice cream and ate a whole carton yesterday without feeling guilty about it. I love the husband and have been touchy touch the last couple of days needing to hug him every time he passed by. I love books and I make an effort to read daily. I love sending and receiving mail and I sent more letters and cards this year and hope to get return letters too. I love quirky little things and have colored my nails in five different colors for Easter. I love creating things and set out to do daily collages this year – not going smoothly but it’s going. I love photography and use my camera almost daily even though I would love to do more intentional shoots again. I love being outdoors and take walks outside and tend to my terrace garden. I love spending time with friends and family and enjoy the meet-ups and reunions and have invited to a big summer party later this year.

49. In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday?  What about the day before that?  Or the day before that?

I think I would with a little help. I was at a birthday brunch from my friend and after that we decided to have a walk through IKEA without really needing anything (of course we bought stuff) and just looking for inspiration and talking through a few things.
The day before that is already tricker. It was a boring day with only work. I most likely will not remember that.
And the day before that… the same as the day after that. So no… won’t remember that.

The question is do I need to remember each day? Shouldn’t I just remember that I am feeling ok. Maybe even happy at times? That I am feeling better that two years ago when we were in the midst of moving and lawyers and such? Shouldn’t I remember that I have new goals and maybe new aspirations?

50. Decisions are being made right now.  The question is:  Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?

I would say most of the decisions that are being made are made by myself or in cooperation with the husband. Luckily I rarely have to step back when it comes to decision I make about my life. The husband and I never make any big decisions on our own. There is always a check in. If it is buying new glasses for the house or staying overnight at the country home on my own. If it is going somewhere on vacation or doing an investment. Even when making decision in my business I ask for opinion but in the end it is my decision. I think the last time someone made a decision for me is when I was laid of work 9 years ago. No not true the last time was when the owner of our apartment terminated our lease. But overall I am fortunate enough to have mostly control over my life. I am very privilege and I appreciate the fact.

And with these thoughts I answered all those 50 questions. Is there one of these questions you could easily answer in one sentences? Is there an answer you would disagree? Or maybe absolutely agree to? What is a thing you love and how do you express that love?

This post is the ninth of the series to answer all 50 questions. A thing on my 100 things in 1000 days bucket list. You can find the previous answers here: Set 1, Set 2, Set 3, Set 4, Set 5, Set 6, Set 7, Set 8, Set 9.