The Fear of a Blank Space

Hey There,

This post is a bit embarrassing but lets get real here. If you follow this blog from the beginning you know that one of my earlier posts were about getting a craft room. That was in 2013. That was 4 years ago. I do have the room – it is not at all done and the way I wish it would be. I think I fear the blank space and it’s possibilities.

When I got this room I was so hyper-ecxcited about all the possibilities that I think I got overwhelmed. I had this perfect vision of an organized craft lab, spent hours on Pinterest pinning to my board “Hooray! Getting a craft room…” but then just couldn’t decide. I think I got stuck in this status quo ever since.craftaliciousme seeking creative fear of blank space

I did manage to get the furniture figured out but I still have no color on the wall or the reading nook I dream of. Knowing my messy self my hunters-gatheres mentality when it comes to craft supplies I really wanted to only move stuff into the cabinets once I had figured out a system. Problem is, the system is only half existing but the stuff exists. Outside the cabinets – on the floor, on the sideboard, on the desk while some cabinets are still empty. As you can imagine it does create some problems… Not only since I started working from home in March 2017.

Earlier this year – someone I follow online – got her home office re-organized. I think it was one or two months or so in total for the make-over. And I remember I was in awe that she just went and did and taking time out of her day to do so. I remember I also was wondering how much money & time was going in that office as it really looked so good. And then a few months later I learnt she is moving to an office and doesn’t need her home office anymore. For me that would be such a waste of resource and time. And still I am somewhat struggling because what is really better? Living in an unfinished space because being scared of making the wrong decision of maybe not liking my decision in a few months? Or just doing it and enjoying it as long as possible even if it is only for a few months. I mean who is judging me or holding me back if I change it again?

I sense it is not really about getting something physically done here. Something else is going on. Maybe it is about investing in myself, allowing myself to have a happy place, giving creativity a room…

Does anyone else experience this? How do you or did you handle it?

Or maybe it is because I lost the ability to know what I really want and need. Or maybe I never really learnt that. Most people would probably have a party with having an entire room to create from scratch for me it is just overwhelming. And while Mr. 🖤 is consistently offering help – and he’s brilliant in interiors – I equally consistently pass it up. I need to figure this out myself and I need to find out what is going on.

So while I work my way towards my 2018 resolution in baby steps – but baby steps it’s all it needs, right – send advice, encouragement and tips my way please.

Happy day to you,

Tobia

2 thoughts on “The Fear of a Blank Space

  1. I have a craft room and it never really got finished. I spend way less time there than I imagined I would. I feel like I have to have huge chunks of time to sit down and get creative and I didn’t really have these big chunks of uninterrupted time lately… so the ideas in my head definitely surpass my reality right now. Makes me sad though.

    1. Oh that is so sad. I hope you find more time to do your crafts. But in the end it really doesn’t matter where you do it. If you find your creative spark at the kitchen table why not.

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